JEALOUSY DRIVES ME NUT!

Oh my..

How to stop the madness:

http://www.wikihow.com/Stop-Being-Jealous

Thank God there is internet..at least there is something that can help me get back to normal state! It is driving me mad! This jealousy is a bad thing. It could ruin everything. I want to stop this feeling a.s.a.p...i hate it!

 

Get well soon, myself! ;(

Stop searching for trouble. Relax & learn not to care too much!

The person you love most will always be the person that hurt you the most

Sigh..

It is true..the person you love most will always be the person that hurt you the most..

I don't really put much hopes in becoming the ultimate person someone could hope for..i just do my best, and if it is not enough then there is really nothing else i can do except for try & try again...at the same time i have to accept what happen at that moment..if it is something i can change or do, i have to do it or change it..if not, accept it the way it is..

I can never be the perfect one for anybody..everybody has their own flaws..you just need a person who accepts you for who you are..it is not easy finding a person like that..but a relationship is about accepting each other no matter what & also working on what you have..when one side stop trying & have their attention to someone else, that is when the relationship starts to fall..

I do realize life is not perfect. If such thing ever occurs, i will have to remind myself to work on whatever possible to maintain the relationship because again, everybody have flaws..but of course, being a human, it is hard to think rationally when you are full of emotion..if i ever feel this way, i hope that i will read this post..please please please stay strong..try not to follow emotion so much when making decisions...rationalize everything..make decisions only when your head is clear..take some time apart if you have to..think what is best, not only for yourself but decide what is best for everybody..never be selfish

*forgiveness is never a bad thing*

DISTRACTIONS

I tend to feel a lot of things i don't like to feel..
And thus, to avoid feeling that way, i distract myself with something else.
Be it food, movies, games, chores,..whatever it is that helps me forget that feeling..sometimes when i do that, i am reminded of Bree from Desperate Housewives.

When Bree is unhappy, she avoid feeling that way by concentrating on being the perfect housewife..the more unhappy she feels, the more particular she becomes -> she would want her work to be flawless..the house will be perfectly clean & tidy, the food will be superb, the glass & dishes would be shiny..i can totally relate to that..she avoids feeling that way by making herself busy & targeting the best which requires her to put a lot of effort or thinking or activity..see, when she do things correctly, with hard work, she would get a result as she expected & she feels like she has accomplished something & that makes her happy..this way not only she could get herself busy & stop thinking about things that makes her unhappy, she also get to feel happy because the thing that she works on actually yields good results..

However, the bad thing about this is when she do that, she feels so comfortable that she continues to do it all the way through her marriage..she tried so hard not to feel any pain to the point that she doesn't really react anymore..she doesn't show her sad feelings..although its killing her inside, she will only cry when she is alone & only when she is extremely upset..she will always channel her feeling towards the house chores..it comes to a point that her husband feels annoyed & her children think that she is heartless when she doesn't show her true feelings..scary huh..she is trying to be strong..anyway after her husband died & when another man comes along, she opens up to the new guy & let her wild side & feelings out..somehow the guy knows how to make her feel comfortable & gain her trust..

Partner play some role in helping out woman..because somehow whatever men do will reflect upon what woman do & what she feels..one of the lesson i got from Bree is don't try to be too perfect by controlling all the bad emotions..after all, we are only humans..bad feelings needs to be sorted & not to be kept..when your man do something wrong or bad, let the feelings go..keeping it will only eats you from inside, your feelings for your partner will die slowly due to unresolved issues..this is very bad for relationship..partners needs to be ready to face each other..although you may quarrel, at least the relationship is honest & you will love each other even more after that..you will know each other better & the love you share will be more appreciated..

It is still okay to keep some feelings to yourself..just dont over-do it :) you'll be like a robot because robot don't feel sadness or pain..

There is also a chance that you might go crazy keeping all emotions to yourself!!

Danger!! Danger!! Alert!! Alert!!

NUMB

.....feeling numb.....

mixed feelings..oh a load of crap in my head right now..but i think i will just ignore em..what important now is to make myself happy..to be happy, i have to think positive & calm myself..whatever feeling i have should be left behind..it is not relevant anymore..I must CHOOSE to be happy bcoz im so tired of feeling miserable for the past few years..

Trying to be mature & trying not to let emotion take control of me (haha..obviously not doing that very well)..when i feel something it will definitely show on my face & body language..the good point for this is that if im angry, it will take shorter time for me to calm down..the bad point is if i unleash the fury, bad things might happen which is irreversible..aah i cant control everything..might as well hold on to the rules that i believe will work in almost every situation to help calm me down n keeps me happy:

1. Whatever happens, accept it with an open heart, no matter how much it hurts. The more u deny it the worse u will feel.
2. Always do your best. If what u do doesnt work, at least you know u have given your best shot. So u will feel less guilty or miserable.
3. Be calm & happy. If u feel miserable, try to reason with urself of why u shouldnt feel that way.If u cant reason with urself, then it goes back to rule no 1.
4. In whatever situation, communication is one of the important key to success. Communication breakdown might lead to more serious problems that doesnt even exist in the 1st place.
5. Dont keep feelings to urself. If u have to control ur feelings, do it but find some ways to let it out later. 
6. Stay positive. Positive mind leads to healthy & happy life.
 

 

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Checklist persediaan perkahwinan/walimatulurus with some info

Fuiyoww..

Konon2 la kan cerita psl persediaan perkahwinan..hehehe..hmm..nak igt2 semula apa yang dah dibuat..so far, apa yang perlu dibuat sudah pun dibuat tanpa rasa kelam kabut..sbb partner push kot? ngehehe..

Roughly, ni yang perlu dibuat sebagai preparation untuk kahwin..
*untuk senang monitor, boleh set start date/tarikh mula perkara untuk dibuat dan due date/tarikh akhir perkara perlu selesai*


Pendaftaran perkahwinan
-Kursus kahwin (2 days course)
-Ujian HIV (finger prick test..5 min dah dapat result kalau klinik tak ramai org..skrg result valid for 6 months..dulu 3 months je..)
-Cari/book tok kadi & saksi (tok kadi ni akan sign borang permohonan nikah)
-Isi dan hantar borang permohonan nikah
-Follow up status permohonan nikah

Guest list
-family, vip, friends
*penting untuk edaran kad& gift, food estimation, khemah*

Kad jemputan
-  tempahan-prepare peta lokasi, aturcara majlis
-collect from kedai
-kumpul address (fb/sms)
-tulis & edaran secara pos
*bg kad kpd photographer, pa system, tok kadi & lain2 yang terlibat secara direct dgn majlis*

Brg hantaran 
-hantar untuk gubahan
-collect gubahan hantaran

Yang ini terpulang la kepada masing2 nak hantar & balas berapa..
Kalau boleh, bagi brg biar la ada maksud..
Biasanya yang wajib ada mesti persalinan baju, wangian/brg mandian, makanan..sbb brg2 hantaran ni,  umpamanya hadiah utk seseorang tu bersiap2..contohnya bagi brg mandian boleh bg towel juga..bagi baju melayu boleh bagi sampin/kain pelikat untuk match..kalau bg baju kemeja tak perlu la bagi sampin/kain pelikat..kalau moden, semua persalinan kena moden..kalau tradisional, semua persalinan kena tradisional..baru la tak nmpk janggal..

Cincin dan mas kahwin tidak termasuk dalam brg hantaran..biasanya, semasa akad nikah cincin dan mas kahwin akan dibawa..tetapi barang hantaran yang lain tidak dibawa. Namun begitu, sekiranya wang hantaran dijadikan salah satu barang hantaran, ia perlu dibawa semasa akad nikah kerana kebanyakan negeri sekarang semasa akad nikah, tok kadi akan minta wang hantaran ditunjukkan..ada sesetengah tok kadi tidak menerima cek kosong kerana terdapat kes penipuan dimana pihak perempuan tidak dapat cashkan cek tersebut..jadi selalunya bank draft yang lebih baik digunakan..anyway tak expert bab bank2 pnya hal ni..maybe boleh tanya yang lebih pakar..
 
Semasa akad nikah:
*jgn lupa bawa kad pengenalan dan upah tok kadi dan saksi semasa majlis akad nikah..upah tok kadi dan upah saksi dibayar oleh ayah pengantin perempuan..mungkin ada silap disini, sila confirmkan dengan source lain..hehe..

Pengapit
-pilih pengapit L&P
-bayaran baju pengapit L&P
-confirmation attendance

Pakaian & andaman
-fitting baju
-ambil baju
-inai

*for us, kami pilih kedai mana kami nak, then terus pilih baju mana berkenan..disebabkan baju yang disukai warna tu, maka kami punya tema kahwin pun kaler tu..ni nak sng la..boleh je nak design sendiri etc..kami kurang cerewet..asalkan kahwin,majlis lancar, pkaian n andaman nmpk cantik, Alhamdulillah..
*kadang2, kita buat plan punya la detail, punya la nak mcm tu mcm ni..turns out that day mcm2 prob..hmm..apa2 pun, jgn terlalu stress memikirkan details..buat je apa yg perlu dibuat..jgn terlalu cerewet dan expectation jgn terlalu tinggi..nanti kecewa sedih pulak di hari bahagia..

Hiasan lain
-prepare bunga pahar
-prepare bunga manggar
-prepare tanda arah rumah
-pasang tanda arah rumah

Tempahan tmpt makan
-kanopi
-meja mkn
-alas meja mkn, meja buffet, kerusi
-kipas
-lampu
-area basuh tgn
-area cuci pinggan

Makanan (meja pengantin, VIP, tetamu)
-tempah kek pengantin
-pemilihan menu
-collect kek pengantin
-food arrangement at buffet/table set
-food topup
-edaran gift
-packing extra food

PA system
-attendance confirmation/reminder
-pemilihan lagu
-prepare space for DJ & wiring
-script/aturcara majlis

Photographer
-check out hasil kerja
-confirmation of attendance
-collection of albums

Gift
-tempah
-terima
-packing
-edaran

Penginapan tetamu
-Homestay?

Tempat tinggal lepas kahwin
-sewa/beli/parents?

Honeymoon
-tempah place to stay etc


I think thats it la..boleh tambah2 sendiri mana yang nak & perlu..

Untuk majlis perkahwinan, semasa berbelanja perlu beringat-ingat..
Ukur baju di badan sendiri & belanja mengikut kemampuan..

Goodluck!!

me n him

I'm excited :)
Can't wait to be together with him! We will be married in 2 months time :)

Sometimes it feels like it is too good to be true..but i'm grateful to God for this opportunity..i will try my best, be the best for u my darling..
Musira Musa, thank you for asking me to be your wife..less than 1 month we knew each other & yet u trusted me & put me in ur circle..it still amaze me how our relationship grew so fast & how i get so fond of u..

Hope everything works out well :)
I love u :)